Filed under: Consuming, food, hunger, Ideas, Lent, shopping | Tags: bread, eating, focus, food, God, hunger, senior citizens, snacking
A combination of emotional eating and over-reliance on a big feeding opportunity has caused me to lose focus for the past couple of days. I need to get back on track, especially because with the bridal shower I’m attending tomorrow, I don’t have any big volunteer gigs for about a week. I’m hungry, now, but if I eat now, I might not get to eat later. I’m really asking God for strength here.
I did have a couple of opportunities to feed others that I forgot to mention in the past day or two. One morning before work, I was in line at the grocery store in front of an elderly woman with a lot of things in her cart. I only had two things, and the person ahead of me was going to take a few minutes. I helped the woman place her items on the conveyor. That’s not something I would normally do. I’m not really the type to talk to the people in line around me at the grocery store. Also, I’m usually just sort of stuck in my own head I think, unaware of what’s going on around me. Anyway, I think it’s definitely something for which you should watch for an opportunity.
Yesterday was gorgeous outside, so there was no way I was staying in at lunch. I heated up some leftover pizza and made my way to the park. I still had some old bread I needed to unload (and I STILL have more). I walked off the path by the lake a little and tore it up for the birds (or whoever gets to it first).
Then, yesterday afternoon I decided I wanted a snack (like I said, I was eating too much). I went down to the snack machine and karma got ahold of me. I hit the wrong buttons and wound up with pretzels instead of plain potato chips. I don’t like pretzels. At first, I couldn’t find anyone else that liked them either, but Liz said she would take them home to her kids.
People are getting suspicious of me. It’s kind of funny. Someone else brought in popcorn at work, and Stephanie came over and asked warily, “Are you feeding us again?”
I also got my first food donation. I offered to “file for food,” so Brenda brought in a bag of groceries. She has A LOT of filing. I’m happy to do it, though. I appreciate the donation.
I’m going to put more effort into this this weekend. I need to brainstorm more ideas too. I really want this project to help as many people as possible…
Filed under: donation, food, hunger, Lent, poverty | Tags: baking, bread, craigslist, donation, food, nutrition, pizza
Yesterday was the day of my first surprise. I was really excited to do something nice for my coworkers, so when I found Kelly’s ad on CraigsList, I knew I’d found something great in more ways than one.
You see, for every two loaves of bread Kelly sells, she bakes and donates one to the Hillsboro Food Pantry. And this isn’t just any assorted mix of baked goods. Everyone RAVED about ALL of it! I ordered the cinnamon swirl bread, a dozen vanilla cookies with chocolate chips and craisins, and a dozen double chocolate chocolate cookies and told everyone to go at it! The girls around me went on and on about how amazing the cookies were, and I got lots of good feedback on the bread too. Kelly also said she would be willing to make vegan goodies too; she would just have to find a recipe. This wasn’t for me, though, but I might have to put her to the test on that soon. Everything was so good, when we have our dessert party next week, at least a couple of people are going in on an order together.
I did get something for myself though. Kelly also makes pizza! I ordered mine cheesless (of course) with spinach and onion. It’s only $5 plus $.50 for each topping! What a steal!

Crispiness was my bad
If you live in the St. Louis area, I HIGHLY recommend getting in touch with Kelly!
I don’t want this post to just sound like an advertisement. It felt really good to be able to provide something for my coworkers. It was also good to know that people who are really in need are getting something out of it too.
On a related note, I think I mentioned in a previous post that someone contacted me and said she was a mother of four in need of some groceries because her husband had been laid off. I said I could, of course help, but initially she wanted meat. I’m sorry, but my ethics won’t allow me to do that. I offered to gather some other things and get back to her when I had it together. I came back with a list including bread (courtesy of Kelly), fruit, and vegetables. She rejected a lot of it. Okay… Well, I still made the effort, asking how I could get what she wanted to her. It turns out, she lives at least half an hour away. Ouch. She said she understood if I couldn’t make it. Originally, I still wanted to try. I feel just awful saying I could offer something and then not coming through on it. Mitch made me realize, though, that if she could afford to be picky, she can’t be in that much need. He’s right. I still feel bad. I don’t want this to sound like I’m bashing her at all. I’m just conflicted. What would you do?
Filed under: co-op, Consuming, food | Tags: birds, bread, co-op, food, lunch, produce, school, snacking
Before I get into anything else, I’m all giddy because I got my produce from the co-op today. For $25, I got all this, and I’ll get another load in two weeks…

You can tell I didn't go to art school.
That’s:
5 bananas
2 tomatoes
1lb red grapes
1 zucchini squash
7 green onions
2 honeydew melons
4 potatoes
1 head of lettuce
3 grapefruit
6 oranges
2 lemons
2 onions
1 green pepper
7 apples (eating one now, couldn’t help it)
12 mushrooms
15 brussel sprouts (my favorite!)
and some snap peas
I once again had to reassure Angi that I will find a good home for ALL of it (even the gross mushrooms). Supporting local business. That definitely counts!
I fell to the power of snacks for the past two days. I had the feeds to make up for it, but I need to practice more self-control. No snacks tomorrow. Oh, and I do have plans for tomorrow…
I bought a bird feeder. I wasn’t going to bring it up because I did something not so bright. I bought one of those cheap cage feeders that you just stick a block of food in. Well, how was I supposed to know what suet is. Why on earth would birds want to eat that?? Who decided that was a good idea? Well, I put the stuff out, but as soon as it’s gone, the feeder is going on Freecycle. I’ll get a new one that holds SEEDS.
I had more French onion soup for lunch today (only one serving left). I bought French bread for it before I made it, but that’s pretty much dead now. I fed it to some geese on my way between my car and class.
Speaking of class, sorry this is brief, but I have to get to my homework. Keep feeding! (Is that lame to say?)
Filed under: Consuming, food, homeless, hunger, Ideas, Lent, poverty | Tags: church, food, God, hunger, irony, Lent, travel, worship
The days really do blend together sometimes, especially while traveling and getting little sleep.
I am sitting in JFK airport, taking full advantage of the luxuries my new job has afforded me: a trip to Buffalo, meals, accommodation and a week’s worth of education, exploration, conversation and new friendly faces with whom to make friends. Typing on my laptop and using free internet most definitely screams of irony at this point. And yet, it hits me harder than ever that this is very much what I am supposed to be doing right now. Sara, perhaps coincidentally–but I am thinkin’ it is probably more of a meaningful connection than it is serendipity–recently wrote about returning back to Church and tuning into to some sort of awakening within her. God, whomever we deem he or she to be, in whatever form, whatever being, whatever meaning, is not as much a compelling force as she or he is a force within us. I am grateful to the Allens for this reminder, and for letting me join them for an 8 o’clock service. Listening to their recounts of missionary work in Jamaica and Honduras, I felt the gentle nudge to not forget my focus, even while away on a pseudo-vacation.
Yesterday morning I found myself taking communion in Indiana. Nick and I drove down to Santa Claus to visit his family and celebrate the new chapter in his father’s life (retirement and the beginning of a new career). Honestly, before yesterday morning, I hadn’t been to a church service in a years. The last I can remember was probably when my father was still alive and when I still lived in Waco. Somehow, with minimum contact, Sara and I managed to mosey into a place of worship around the same time during this project. I must admit- this is quite moving. As I stood in Santa Claus United Methodist, front pew, piano’s melody carrying me away, I quietly thought of my father and asked myself what he would think of this project. Would he participate? Would he “get” it? Would he encourage me? Would he be proud?
Yes.
With all of this said, adhering to our guidelines proved to be not necessarily a problem over the weekend, but something to keep at the forefront of my mind during my visit. I consumed more than my fair share, yes, out of celebration and camaraderie, but I know that there was something Greater happening while I was there. And I know as I was fed spiritually moreso, that I would be enabled to spread even Greater aid to others upon my return to the city, and onward to Buffalo.
I just gave my bagel to a little boy. I will be participating in a week of service and seminars in Buffalo and am anticipating incredible correlations and inspiration in respect to this project. My stomach is full for now, but even when it is not, I shall take a moment of silence and remember how much I can feed myself, and others, with prayer and positive thought. Actions can create the mightiest ripple of change, but sometimes it is our inaction that speaks loudest–it is the malleability of our ideas that can yield the most needed result.
for everyone, including you, even if you or he or she is not deemed deserving,
xoxo molly
Filed under: donation, food, homeless, hunger, Lent, nonprofit, poverty, shelter, volunteer | Tags: children, church, cooking, dinner, feed, food, homeless, Lent, nonprofit, serve, shelter, women
I haven’t been so great about getting to church since I moved into my own apartment. I decided today, though, that with it being Lent and me talking to God more with this project and all, I should get my butt to church. I wake up by 8 naturally anyway now. (I think that means I’m a grown up.)
So, I got ready, fed the dogs, had a bowl of applesauce and went on my way, still somehow running late despite ample time. I am my father’s daughter.
On the way, at the intersection of Grand & Gravois, there was a man with a sign saying he needed food (and other things, but I didn’t have time to read it). I got this idea from First Baptist Church in St. Charles when I was still church-shopping. I wasn’t crazy about anything else, but I thought this idea was genius. I keep bags of food in my car for just these situations. I just us a gallon zip lock bag, and inside my bags, there is a granola bar, a box of raisins, a bottle of Koolaid, and a note of encouragement. I also put those two applesauce Go Go Squeeze things in two of the bags. I held the bag out of my window for the man, and he came and got it, said “God bless you,” and moved to the sidewalk. He just needed some food, and people just ignore these guys and assume they’re just begging for money. They’re hungry!
I made my way to Third Baptist Church on Grand, not too late. It was a good service. I realized once I saw that they were serving the Lord’s Supper that it must have been a month since I’d gone to church. Bad me.
The sermon was about Jesus descending into “hell” and what that may actually mean (the difference between sheol, hades, and gehenna). I noticed in their bulletin that they’re having a meeting on the 15th about restarting their food pantry. That’s definitely going into my calendar.
I made unrolled cabbage rolls (which is really more like a stew), yet again from Vegan Vittles. It’s a good cookbook. Go intern at Farm Sanctuary. They’ll give it to you free.
My afternoon zipped by, and before I knew it, it was time to head to Our Lady’s Inn to serve dinner. This is a great nonprofit in south city St. Louis. It was a convent that they have converted into a shelter for homeless young women who are pregnant or have young children. Right now, they’re housing about 25 women and children, but they have room for around 30 if necessary.
When I got there, I filled out the volunteer application, gave the staff member the cooking utensils I’d purchased, and took a tour. The rooms are small, especially considering most of the women have to share it with at least one small child, if not two or three, but it’s a roof, and a bed. There are also a couple of lounges with TVs, a children’s play room, and a small playground. There are bathrooms with showers and bathtubs, a dining hall where meals are provided, and a laundry room stocked with detergent for them to use. Everyone must sign in and out and are supposed to tell the staff where they are going. Most of the women go to classes or have some kind of job. There is a room where visitors can come for an hour at a time. They also have nurses and counselors on staff for the women. It’s completely nonprofit, too, run on donations and a few grants.
When I got there, many of the women were just coming back from however they’d spent their Sunday. There were adorable babies and little kids everywhere! When it came time for dinner, I donned my stylish hairnet and plastic gloves. They had roast beef, cabbage with turkey, cauliflower, macaroni salad, and rolls. One of the ladies must say grace before they get their food. They get their kids’ food first then come back for their own. The kids are required to be served one of everything on the menu (making them eat it all is another thing). I served the cauliflower and macaroni. All of the women were nice and polite, but also noticeably tired. Afterward, I wanted to sit with them and talk, but I couldn’t quite break out of my shell that much. I sat at the first table with one of the staff members. Eventually, though, one of the mothers’ kids came in a little late, and I got to sit across from two very cute kids.
The women clean up after the meal themselves. They’re all assigned chores. Some put out the dishes before the meal, and others put the food away. They wipe down the tables and go off their separate ways. I would say I fed about 20 people there. It was a nice experience, and I hope to go back.
Mitch came over tonight (finally!). I was a little disappointed that he wasn’t hungry. I had all this good food in my refrigerator. I guess I couldn’t be too mad though. He did bring me roses and a cookie from Chicago Diner. I will admit, I snuck a bite of it after he left. Don’t worry, I’m counting it.
Filed under: donations, food, shopping | Tags: animal shelter, cleaning, cooking, dog, donations, shopping, volunteer, walmart
I spent today like I spend most weekends. Cleaning up after my 65lb, hairy child. I swear, he makes at least 80% of the mess in my apartment between running back and forth, spreading things out and knocking them down as he goes, and destroying his stuffed animals. He drives me insane.

Would anyone like to buy the destructo-dog? $.50 (Just kidding!)
I can’t blame it all on him. I had to clean the ferret cage too and catch up on dishes (I soooo miss having a dishwasher).
For lunch, I had leftovers from last night. I’d made Garbanzo-Oat Burgers (also from Vegan Vittles) and Oven Roasted Beets and Shallots with Orange Gremolata from the Vegan Planet Cookbook. I love the burgers and the beets are good, but I wouldn’t bother with the gremolata next time. Too much mint for my taste. I also burned it a little, but it was still good.
Long story short, I went almost the whole day without feeding anyone, but I knew I had to go to the store. I had a variety of things to pick up, so I went to Walmart.
So easy to blow so much money.
I can’t say I bought anything I really don’t need, though. I picked up some poster frames for some Ludo posters I’ve had for awhile. I bought some curtain sheers for my bathroom. I bought the laundry baskets I’ll need for the co-op.
I also had to buy some dog food (which is still sitting in my car because I need the big strong boy to carry it upstairs for me tomorrow). Before anyone complains about the quality of food there, I know. I just can’t afford to buy the food I would like to provide my dogs right now. Plus, they both prefer the junk (just like people *sigh*). While I was in that section, I picked up a few cans of cat food.

12 bellies filled for under $5
In my CraigsList searching, I found more than one person looking for items for smaller shelters in need. I emailed one in particular, and I’ll let you know who it goes to in the end. Another feed (or 12) down.
I also needed a potato masher. I plan on making the chickpea-broccoli casserole from the Vegan With a Vengeance cookbook again soon, and I need something to mash the chickpeas. While I was there, I grabbed up any cooking utensil that was under $1 (and looked universally useful).

Another $5 donation
When I scheduled my time to volunteer tomorrow, they told me they could use kitchen utensils to give the women when the move out, so they have some nice things to start their new lives.
All in all, I spent more than I would have liked, but at least some of it is going to good causes. And I didn’t really buy anything frivolous. It was fun buying things for other people. I would say it gave me the same high as impulse buying for myself. Maybe better.
Filed under: Consuming, food, Ideas | Tags: craigslist, donations, God, prayer, Qdoba, snacking, soldier, sushi, vegan, volunteer
Okay. I have to admit, I’m getting a little behind in feeding, but I made so many plans last night it’s ridiculous.
Oh, Thursday. Knowing I was behind, I wanted to skip breakfast, but I caved and had some maple & brown sugar oatmeal with flax oil. I got the flax for a great deal, bottles normally $12-15 I got for $.99 each. And being a good vegan, I know I have to be conscious of my Omega-3 intake.
I wasn’t entirely useless, though. I did get one feed done. I had this thing of unsalted, dry-roasted peanuts that I bought for a recipe. Well, I forgot to put them in the muffins (which I burnt anyway) and I knew I wasn’t going to use them any time soon. So I took them to work and put them in the coffee area with “EAT” on the lid. It’s taken two days, but the jar is about half gone. I’ll take it.
Mitch invited me to lunch, and we went to Qdoba. I wanted to skip the eating and just hang out since I hadn’t seen him for over a week, but things had been kind of weird between us lately. I figured food would give us something to do. (Just to let you know, we’re fine now).
I went back to work and managed to once again resist the snacks just two feet away from me. It was a little tougher. Work is slow, and eating passes the time. That’s not really the best excuse to fill my gut with empty calories, though.
When I got home, I was going to skip dinner. Generally, if I’m actually going to skip a meal, it’s then. I just get busy with other things and forget. I decided to take Thursday pretty easy (in other words, no homework) but I wound up spending pretty much the whole evening looking for ideas for this project.
I found TONS! I don’t want to spoil my exact plans regarding ones that can’t be done just anywhere, but I’ll give you the hint, bread and dog biscuits. Those are two separate ideas btw. I found a local produce co-op too, so be sure to check back on that sometime between Tuesday and Thursday of next week. CraigsList is a beautiful thing (it’s where almost all of my new ideas came from).
I will share one idea I plan on utilizing that anyone can do. Send a care package to a soldier overseas! I found this website:
Whether or not you support the war (I personally do not), I think it’s important to remember the people who are out there putting their lives on the line.
After all my thorough research, I decided I deserved dinner. I had some leftover French Onion Soup I made from the Vegan Vittles cookbook I got as an intern at Farm Sanctuary.
I tried to accomplish another feed this morning, unsuccessfully. I know there’s a cat I’ve seen around my apartment once or twice, so I left some dog food in a bowl by the dumpster. So far, no one’s interested.
Today, I knew I had to forego breakfast. I’m just too far behind. Guess what! I lived! It was uncomfortable at worst, but I reminded myself that I would get to eat in a few hours. Plenty of people have to wait much longer for much less. I also prayed for God to give me strength and remind me of how fortunate I am. It was noon before I knew it!
Mitch and I went out again. We had sushi (minus the dead fishies). It was a really fabulous time. I told him about my new ideas, and he gave me some more for getting food donations. He suggested I talk to my manager about making people “pay” for casual Friday with a donated food item. He also suggested I bake brownies or something and “sell” them for canned goods. He’s so smart!
I made plans to do my first volunteer work with an organization. I’ll be serving dinner in a shelter for pregnant women and mothers. I’ll share more about that Sunday. I’m really looking forward to it!
On my way home from work, I was determined to find someone to feed. I went out of my way to hit the intersections I know I’ve seen people asking for food and money, but no luck. I think it was just too cold out. I’m not sure if I should be happy or disappointed about this. I’m sure that just because I couldn’t find them, it doesn’t mean those people have everything they need today. Oh well.
I used CraigsList some more today (as hundreds of you know! Geez!). I posted this ad in the free section:
Obviously, I can’t feed the world, but for the next 30-something days, for every meal I eat, I will be feeding someone else. Do you want to sit down in a cafe somewhere and chat over lunch, my treat? Maybe it’s been awhile since you’ve had a homecooked meal. We don’t even have to eat together. Let me know how I can help. No, this is not a date, and if you’re male, per my boyfriend’s request and concern for my safety, there will be no private meeting.
If you’d like to know more about this project, visit http://consumeandfeed.wordpress.com
Thanks!
Can you believe it’s been flagged 4 times?!?
When it wasn’t being removed, however, I did get only good responses. I’m setting up a meal with Pete and his wife Evelyn to discuss the project and just enjoy the company of others while doing something nice for them.
I’m also going to do my best to provide some food for a mother whose husband was laid off. My secret plans and the co-op are going to help with this.
I also got another idea from Judy. She suggested that I go to a restaurant, especially one near a hospital, find an elderly person eating alone, and ask if I can join them. Then when the server brings the check, secretly pay for the other person. I’ll have to work up the courage to do that. I’m such an introvert, but this whole thing is about pushing me out of my comfort zone.
Finally, to close, I’d like to share some of the nice comments I received:
“God bless you.” ~ Jana
“U are awesome.” ~ Mark
“Good for you… You seem like a nice person trying to do a nice thing… Have a great day and have fun with it!” ~ Lisa
“That is one of the coolest things I’ve ever heard! May god bless you and your family. It’s just nice to know there are angels among us. Have a great day.” ~ Scott
“God bless you. There are so many hungry and lonely people out there, and I’m sure God is going to bless you. Wish there were more people like you instead of all about me me me and I I I.” ~ Anonymous
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I have this issue with low blood sugar – if I don’t eat a little something every 3 hours, I get light headed and cranky. So needless to mention, this is going to be increasingly challenging for me (and those surrounding me, sorry Nick!). But of course, the benefits of meditation, focusing on the goal at hand, breathing, remembering patience and counting my blessings will be worth it and no doubt will alleviate those issues.
An email from my sister, Raven, yesterday morning entitled “Because we could all use a free meal” was quite the perfect timing. By the time I had logged onto WordPress to begin my update, the Million Subs that Quiznos was giving away were already gone! I did manage to feed two people (and a stray cat) with that promotion.
Because of my sporadic schedule and the traveling I’ll be doing for the next week and a half, I’ve made the decision that this project will be most beneficial and practical for me in a slightly altered way. It is most important to me that I:
A) Only eat what I need to nourish my body, not over-consume and not impulse buy
B) Feed, donate or volunteer at least once a day (or make up for it within the week)
For me, the most recognizable change will be in my day-to-day, thoughtless behavior. See, I am a big snack eater. I was contemplating how much food I could save and give away if I merely ceased to snack. It was challenging yesterday to not eat that trail mix just because it was there, and to preserve it for someone else who was actually hungry. I think, on a large scale, that is one small action that can make a phenomenal dent in waste: to revert back to the basic reason why we eat, which is for nourishment. Also, it is important that we remember to not let ourselves get distracted by excess, as well as keeping in mind the difference between “need” and “want”. As long as I am constantly aware of my own intake, and am consistently giving back, then I think this will be a success.
Additionally, I sent out a massive email to all of my friends and received back a couple of stellar responses that I’d like to share:
From my friend Cody: “So on Sunday, a friend and I picked up an entire station wagon full of bananas, bread, and nuts donated by Trader Joe’s and brought it to the free market, where a couple hundred very happy people descended on it like pigeons on falafel crumblings. of course, the food would have been garbage otherwise, so that was great to see”
And from lovely Gita (who runs the Ginger Cat Bed and Breakfast): I daily feed the birds, a couple of stray cats and a very opportunistic opossum. I share food with my friends and the shelter staff when I’m doing my volunteer day at FS or at the spay/neuter clinics… I have a big veggie garden but that won’t be producing until summer and I’ll be feeding B&B guests vegan food daily and hoping to change hearts and minds via their stomaches, if they’re not already vegan.
To Cody and Gita- you are both truly inspirational friends to have and thank you for sharing your thoughts
New York City is the most oblivious, yet, simultaneously enlightened city. On one hand, there is so much outlandish excess to this place- the entertainment, the wealth, the life, the traffic, the noise, the overabundance of THINGS to buy! But, there is also this wonderful, astounding collective of progressive individuals giving back, conserving, creating, caring, and revolutionizing. Participating in this project whilst living in the big apple will have its immensely difficult parts: it’s hard sometimes just to walk down the street to the subway station without randomly purchasing (or feeling pressured to purchase) something, whether it be a coffee, a bagel or a magazine. But I look at it in the way that one must: the more I say “no”, the more I am aware and the more I am able to focus on how vital this movement is.
If anyone has any more stories to share about how they give back, how they feed, or any suggestions, I urge you to please email me or leave them in the comments; I’d love to post them here! mollywadzeck@gmail.com
As for today, I’m heading to Harlem to volunteer at the Food Bank.
xoxo
Molly




